ilovewinnie

2008-03-22T12:59:00.000-07:00

I've moved to livejournal.
Please relink, and please continue to comment.
;]

http://winnieeeeeee.livejournal.com/

2008-03-16T19:53:00.000-07:00

I had my very last shift at ethnic voodoo on Friday morning and I just had to get a voodoo doll.
I got Hacker Love and trust me, it was working it's effect in just a few hours time.
I can't say what happened, but it was a good feeling.

Supposed to watch The Spiderwick chronicles with Hadi at 3pm but he had to do something.
So we decided to watch it after 5pm, and it dragged to 7pm and then to 9pm and lastly to 11pm.
There was a slot for 9.45pm at GV Vivocity but it wasn't a good view. So we went to Plaza Singapura instead for the 11.20pm slot.
He drove me around and man, I feel refreshed and all the stress leaving me.
Damn good and enjoyable feeling. I need to have this more often. (:

Spiderwick chronicles is good and there was a satisfactory feeling in me after the movie. LIKE FINALLY.
Hadi drove me back after that.

really appreciate it a lot.

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Jamming yesterday was fun too. Were there for only a while.
They're good man. ;] There were extra 2 members, ben's friends.

Left for Macs after that and talked, had fun. Oh man,
I'm the Manager of the band. HAHAHA. Oh my.

I LOVE THE BAND! 白色黑夜
next weekend again! oh yeah!

photos againnnn.

2008-03-15T00:56:00.000-07:00

stop saying "oh i see".
because you never see it at all.

I doubt you even read this at all.

2008-03-13T13:11:00.000-07:00

Adam Khoo's workshop had been a great one.
I think it's because my trainers are all good and them being my trainer, they are the best! Enjoyed to the max.
And they make me think a lot. In terms of both academic and life skills.

Matt got the trophy that I left at the store on Sunday.
He loved it, so does his band members :D

Knightsfall last performance last night at Timbre.
Got them their award and had good food there.
Got a few drinks and talked and listened to others play music.
Couldn't get a movie slot so we left.

photos another day.
work tomorrow the LAST DAY):

come and support me okay!

Tags replies:

Jiemei: HELLO HELLO(:
Anger: I bought a lot a lot already! hahahaha. I'll try to when i get my pay. So thank your OH-SO-LOVELY Cousin.
Joanne: Oh no. SORRY. I'll send you your letter asap. I lost the letter so now I must rewrite.
JieLin: No lah, I don't think I'll take part. O level's year. No kidding man. How's your Alevel results? I think should be good right.
Little Candlestick: MATT is hugs.

2008-03-03T23:04:00.000-08:00

Ethnic voodoo closing down party on Saturday night.

omg - it was funny man. and i'm amazed at all the stuff darren and dan came out with.
thanks guys. I had fun.

Met up at 9pm, with barely half the population there
and Dan and darren took the huge voodoo doll signboard and walk down the escalator to level 2
(: they were trying to promote the shop.

Had party party at the stall and everyone was looking at us. (:
Nice food and drinks and funny conversations.

Took mini-bus to a club near dan's house.
omg, the special event was BOWLING!
Jaime was there too and she taught me bowling ;D
she's super nice and encouraging and at the end, i was like really good.

MATT IS GAY! hahah, omg.

Darren "teaching" us how to bowl. HAHA.

And while bowling, my mum called me.

hahaha, omg. I bowled with one hand on the phone. I even hit 9 pins.

I am a professional. everyone is laughing and cheering.

Darren went: omg, winnie. You're even better than us all. You bowl and talk at the same time! That's professional!

[photos tomorrow; matt rocks;]

Dan drove us out to main road. (: re-edit soon.

BYEEEE ;D

2008-03-03T21:04:00.000-08:00

Work in the morning was fairly enjoyable.
Met Young doing show for Step up 2 dance competition.
Saw Jacqui ;]] got 4 gala premiere tickets that is showing today.
which I can't go because of school tomorrow.
Gave to Eeloo and Yassy. ;]]

church was amazing.

I want to catch a lot of movies man;
Leap years, Spiderwick chronicles, Meet the Spartans, Waterhorse.

photos another day.

2008-02-28T22:38:00.000-08:00

WE'RE TAKING PART IN SUPERBAND, I think.
hahahaha, omg.

:D

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tags replies:

Hadi: hello friend, thanks for tagging.
Raihanah: KABOOM. We will not FAIL a math okay! STUDY HARD HARD. (:
Jielin: Haha. But i'm going to rap in CHINESE eh, so weird. But at least I got supporters now! I request for big banners!
Lydia: YO. What's your new blog address???

2008-02-27T22:52:00.000-08:00

I need to say this:

My life do not revolve around you.
I do not feel the need to report every single detail to you.
Stop this shit, get a life.

You push me around, then change a target.
Let's get hurt shall we, fellow victims?
I do not judge, I count from experience.

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On a happier note, I got 24.5 over 25 for my geog test

2008-02-26T17:54:00.000-08:00

omg, i love geog lessons when ms ng is not here.
Talking to simran, shan ying and aretha is so fun lah.
And I was complaining to SimRan about Mr C. and the best was they kept calling me Mrs Teo.
hahahaha, thanks eh.

and this afternoon, yassy and eeloo came to school.
So aretha and I, being rule-breaker and rebellious kids,
we ran out of class during peer-tutoring to canteen and found them!
omg, they even came to class((: aretha, I know I rock okay.

and we were constantly saying, "eh, this is so fun!" hahahhaha.

2008-02-25T22:26:00.000-08:00

Ah boo. I need cash desperately.
KACHINGGGGG.
I just haven't gotten my pay yet.

Party this saturday night. hahahah. amazinggg.
special guest appearance. Lot's of funny stuff. Photos!

Young invited me and 19 other people to a quiz called "What rapper are you?"
hahaha, oh man. I bet he still remembers rap battle.
I'm a lyrical rapper, what about you?

Turning on to do some graphic cards and macarons and trophies.
Can't wait for Timbre during March hols.

I was just waiting for you to get online friend,
and you took forever.

goodbye.

2008-02-23T22:51:00.000-08:00

CIP today was so not fun.
Let's rephrase, CIP was never fun and will never be fun.

under the hot sun, half-filled can, 5 hours, thirsty winnie )):

Deafcon 10 at DXO was amazing.
Knightsfall was how cool lah(; Didn't regret rushing all the way there.
Damn worth 8 bucks even if I have to buy the tickets. However, I got them free.
I think knightsfall is really talented. Ray and I both think they are seriously good.

We even have a video of "BEFORE DEAFCON 10". Retarded video man, but fun.
Because we were early and had nothing to do, we joked around.

Watching them play just make me want to JAM(: oh man, when's the next meeting?
Ray can't make it coming sat, I can't make it the one after. Tentatively, this friday. I CAN'T WAIT!

Next gig at Timbre, I'll be there!

After their performance, Hadi and I sat down and talked a bit.
and so we decide to camwhore a little(: hahaha, oh my god. It was so funny.

and omg, he has dimples lah. hahaha. and I happen to chance upon this;

Gerald: Name 1 sexy part of your body?
Hadi: My Dimples?

Gerald: What kind of girls turns you on?
Hadi: Those cute cute ones with dimples just like me....

omg.

i love my hair here.

Work today was pretty okay (:
sold quite a lot of dolls. Met funny people.

Tags replies:

Joanne: haha. I think my mum threw away your letter accidentally. omg. haha. I can't find it to send it now. I think i got to rewrite. It's a page long you know. I wrote it personally now. NOT TYPE IT. oh boo.
Kera: It's okay(:

2008-02-19T09:17:00.000-08:00

CIP in the morning from 7.30am to 12.30pm.
Deafcon at 2pm.
Work at 3pm or 4pm.

yes, my Saturday is filled with activities again.

I'm free from 6.30pm. Anyone wants to date me then?
I need a steamboat dinner ((:
I'll gladly love to go for one on saturday to keep my saturday full-time packed.
Message me allright.

2008-02-17T03:02:00.000-08:00

Hadi and I went to search for free deafcon tickets on monday for a few freaking hours. Together with another Hadi, which is his friend.
Yes, as much as you've guess it, we couldn't find it. I was bitching about it allright.
And that was also because we just couldn't remember what the map drew.
But nevertheless, Hadi's other friend got us each an ticket. (:

and Thursday,
Happy Valentine's Day people.
exchanged gifts here and there. Wishes and letters and cards are widely appreciated.
Thanks to all my lovers! ((: hahahaha.

and friday,
I feel so upset that my class is like that. Like OMG, seriously- you're 16, stop acting like 6.
But anyway, the whole AGL thing is so absurd. I did not even join it and they claim my name on it. I seriously do not want to get involved in this, it's crap.
I just rekindled a friendship and it's so difficult to. And everyone is breaking it and treating it like shit.
oh god.

My friendship's back, I love my job, I'm studying, I have a band which I love, I smile.
My life's perfect, in my opinion.

and Friday night,
I had work from 6.30pm to 10pm. and Darren popped by.
I swear he's like one of the funniest guy alive. hahahahaha ;D
and one of the most amazing guy alive who has an American accent when speaking English, and a China accent when speaking Mandrin. oh my, i'm envious.

and we were laughing at how darren puts up mark's photo just to spite him.

and Saturday,
Work from 11am to 6.30pm. Supposed to meet Hadi but he was sleeping lah.
Waited for an hour and got upset. So i left to meet my mum at my aunt's house.
I got lost and my uncle had to shout from the house. hahaha,

My uncle and nephew loves transformers. oh my, they tried to steal my transformer's bookmark away from me. hahahaha. Talked and chatted with my cousin and uncle about school, band, everything. (:

Tags reply:

Joanne: hello! my life is good. never been so satisfied with live but I'm lazy to go school ): and I finished writing your letter already!
Raihanah: oh boo. next next year? I don't care anymore, I'm getting a new boyfriend. hahahaha.
Davin: haha, i have it since LONG AGOOOOOO ((:

2008-02-09T21:36:00.000-08:00

Happy CNY everyone; although it was a quite disappointing one for me.

Reunion dinner was okay, i think. The food was absolutely delicious lah.
and we did take lots of photos while we walked to boat quay to watch the fireworks.
Passed by Singapore river, gmax-bungy and even ACM. I missed it so mucch!

Fireworks was freaking amazing! (: cabbed home.

Went to 3rd aunt's house on Friday. I finally met up with my cousins.
It has been like 175372064037 years since i've met them and everyone had changed!
Which is not a bad thing, because we have so much to talk about. Ate and played blackjack with Zhihong being the banker. I lost a few bucks.

Didn't have anything to do so Jielin, jiemei and i went to Anger's house. haha. We tried searching for movie timings but they were none i was able to catch because of my work schedule.
And in the end we had women talk, which evenutally turned into an amusement park when the kids came in. hahaha.
Went back to aunt's house and played blackjack when i became the banker. haha. played with little kids with small amounts and i won! played a little mahjong and left to bugis with anger, jielin and jiemei.

Cabbed there. Ate and i went to work.

We camwhore at ethnic voodoo lah. hahahahaa.
They wanted the kusoul and voodoo but they just wouldn't buy it because it was too expensive.
haha. even after staff price lah!

And they left to watch cj7 and when they end, i was already packing up.
We wanted to go back to aunt's house to play mahjong or blackjack but everyone left already.
So disappointed lah. So we went macs and talked about our past memories in kindergarden.
It was so funny okay. We must have more sessions!

Left for home and work today.
Matt was doing the shift before me and he looked so unapproachable lah. haha.
But he was really nice though. he even got newspaper for me to read. hahahaha
btw, I sold like 22 dolls? Which gives me a comission and I could buy my kusoul! (: i love my kusoul.

2008-02-03T00:44:00.000-08:00

Work yesterday and today was cool lah. Although I didn't manage to sell a lot of dolls.
hahaha. But I really hate the closing shift on friday night. There's so many dolls to keep lah!
But I realised a lot of funny things happening there. ;D
People asking me where the food court is, where the toilet is. and people run away after hearing the price of the dolls. Not expensive what, $13.90 only.

My shift today was supposed to be from 3pm to 6.30pm. But Mark was running late.
So he told me to work till 7pm and in the end he came at 7.40pm. Which resulted in me being late for my first rehersal with my mates!

Ben messaged us clarke quay and in the end it was boat quay.
And ray parked his van near liang court. So he had to walk really really far back to retrieve it.
And decided to meet me at clarke quay where he drove me to our destination.

We booked a room at boat quay. $14 an hour. And started practising.
I screw mine okayyyyy. Like I can't RAP ):
I was so upset lah. But thanks friend for encouraging me. (I can't say his name or he'll get complacent. right HADIRMAN?)
I shall practice really really hard for next week's rehersal.

Loved yellow by coldplay.

And so we decided to go Macs after that to discuss for next week's rehersal.
And some funny conversation got started and everyone started saying "On the Way".
And thus, we decided to name ourselves ON THE WAY!
hahaha.. WE LOVE IT!

So CNY just next week and I'm feeling like crap because I haven't got all my clothes yet.

and talking about that, sarah is such poor thing.
She was forced to do CNY decorations and only some of them helped her.
And she couldn't do it on time, everyone blames her.
She's so upset now lah.

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I like you, do you know?
Because I can feel the security I need in you.
But do you feel anything? I long to just sit and talk to you.

2008-01-31T20:40:00.000-08:00

I had an interview with Mark Zee just now. He's like super nice can.
;D And and, I'll start work tomorrow!!! hahahah. from 6.30pm to 10pm.
come and support me okay.
come and support me okay.
come and support me okay.

and JAMMING on saturday. I seriously can't wait.
Plus I'm getting my shoes and working on saturday afternoon too!
;D EVERYONE SHALL LOVE WINNIE ANG!

By the way, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TRISHNA (thats meant for yesterday!)

2008-01-27T02:01:00.000-08:00

Making the band was like fun man!

Thanks everyone for making it SO COOL. Keep in contact okay.

Hadi and I are going to have a band just like Linkin Park next time.
hahahhaahaha. Cross our heart and swear ;D

Anyway, he's the back-up singer in KnightsFall. Support local band okay!

So go support them at Deafcon 10!

I think what was the best was that we had a good time knowing each other.
Talking aimlessly and getting to know the jocks better.
And guess what, Vanessa Fernandez and Mark Bonafide were there too.

;D We did a song each and it was so funny okay!

And guess what, Mark was really nice because he was really interested in the fact that i am interested in rap. Like a female rapper. hahahhaaha.

He told me to write my own rap and if I need any help, go to him.

Before, I had X helping me. Now, I shall look for Mark. ;D

btw, did I mention that school released us at 8.30am on friday morning?

Well, the school waterpipe burst and they had to maintenance it. So no water, which means that we can't carry out normal school activities.

And hence, they sent us back home. hahaha. it was so cool okay!

and gaya, sarah and I left to junction 8. We wanted to study lah.

But when we saw Eve, Michelle and ZhenMin, they were going to watch 27 dresses and so we did too lah.

The movie ended at 1pm. And Gaya, sarah and I went to the playground and sat there and talk.

We should have more of those session. It's so fun can.

2008-01-24T19:54:00.000-08:00

LIKE ZOMGGG!
I got an A1 for my chinese O'level!

That's an A1 I can use for my L1R5.
I'm more encouraged. I'll work harder!

I was only hoping for an A2, just like PeiJin.
And when we both got our results, we screamed and ran and danced.
And Natasha, Pei Jin and I ran back to class and screamedddddddd. Oh god.

Mummy and daddy were so happy lah. My efforts and prayers paid off!
Thanks everyone who prayed for me, wished me good luck and encourage me.
POOFFFFF ;D

but anyway, Saturday, I'll be meeting desiree for the "lunch-time hookup" of Making the band.
hahaha. I think I'll embarass myself lah.
Who wants a girl rapper? Maybe we'll be like Linkin Park.

2008-01-21T14:57:00.000-08:00

Happy Belated Birthday Shan-a-nay-nay.

hahaha. Unfortunately, your birthday falls on the day that I have to go and watch Beauty World so I can't get you your birthday present on time.

Beauty World musical was really really good.
I think what was really good was that they used new casts rather than the old people like hossan leong etc.
and we saw Michael Chieng and Ivan Heng.
It would be rare if we actually see them because they don't turn up for like every single stage play.
It would be almost impossible to see Dick Lee.

Anyway, I was supposed to go Ngee Ann poly openhouse but came down with food poisoning on friday night. Horrible horrible. And I promised Sarah I'll go SMU with her for the exhibition.
And it's Monday and I'm not at school.

and btw, peijin got scolded by Ms choo for using computer while she's teaching. And punished her by asking her to do a 2 page reflection. It was like funny okay! I bow man. I can't believe I even got her for my Bio partner. ;D

oh btw, X left last friday.
I wanted to send him off lah, but stupid school.
And anyway, if you still want to see him, he uploaded some pretty nonsense video that last only 48 secs the most on his facebook account. hahahah.
;D go see it.

till then, CYA!

2008-01-11T23:50:00.000-08:00

I think sec four life have it's pros and cons.
and I'm no longer one of those that don't pass up my homework or don't do them.
I completed them! ;D Whao, feeling of satisfaction. Mug hard lah, O'levels this year.

AND, RAIHANAH! YOU SUCK MAN! hahahahahhaa. I DO NOT WANT TO MARRY XAVIER. BUT I KNOW YOU WANT TO MARRY ASH! HA! I SHALL WRITE TO HIM TO TELL HIM AND PRINT OUT YOUR BLOG ENTERIES. HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA. OH god, you're so funny.

But anyway, as I was doing chem today morning, I feel my life getting sucked out.
Oh god, I didn't imagine it to be so bad lah.
I was even trying to convince myself that it has to do with the nitrogen dioxide that's really very very poisonous.
It dragged on till after Biology, where Friday morning ended.

I wanted to cry so badly, knowing it's over.
Silence, I need silence.

I want to study hard now. Studying with Natasha and Sarah tomorrow.
;DDDD

2008-01-05T13:04:00.000-08:00

Allright, everyone's bugging me to blog about my good times in 2007,
and new year resolutions. hahahah.
I had to go back and read my old posts just to write about them lah.

The good:
1. I still love God as before.
2. St Margs has more than 1 person in church now!
3. I evangelist - devotion and cards for sec ones.
4. I had my good friends always with me.
5. I went for Don and Drew!!!
6. I got to know the 987 jocks!
7. I got to know _____, and even loved him.
8. I took part in Rap Battle Championship
9. I met X and Jacqui.
10. I met new friends.
11. Celebrated Christmas at the studio.
12. I drew closer to my family even so much more.
13. I survived 2007!

The bad:
1. Stupid security guards refused to let me into the studio when X was doing SIWM.
and yes, I'm still mad.

Looking forward:
1. A one-pointer for O'levels
2. Continue loving God.
3. Be able to go church as much as possible.
4. To love him as well and wait for him to come back.
5. Be able to perform, kind of like rap battle.
6. Draw closer to my friends
7. To accept people for who they are.
8. To survive 2008

;D

Another year had passed. And I would like to give my sincere apology to whoever I've upset. Or I'm upset with.
I'm going to try my best to accept you for who you are. Life's better this way.

And to some of the precious ones around me, I apologise.

Mum and Dad:
I know I've not been good this year. Especially running away to church, not doing well for studies, always going out and not spending much time with you. Sometimes, showing tantrums. But I want to tell you I love you so much that it hurts me seeing myself hurt you.

Yassy, Eeloo, and all my leaders:
I don't know if you'll ever read this, but thanks for everything you've done for me. I know you will always be the one there for me regardless of how bad I'm turning. I'll try to go church as much as possible. I promise.

Kera:
Thanks for all the fun we had. I love you no matter what okay. We both have our shortcomings, but I just want to apologise for everything I've done.

Inez, Joanne, Kez, MiSoto and all my new friends:
Thanks for coming into my life. My life is a new turning with you guys! ;D

Xavier teo:
Hey best friend. Great seven months plus I've known you. Thanks for replying my mails after mails, taking up my calls after calls. Encouraging me about my baking. And everything. Thanks friend. You're amazing!

2008-01-05T00:10:00.000-08:00

It's the very first week of school. and guess what, i'm starting to feel the o'level pressure already.
oh god, i think THAT sucks. Pile of homework waiting for me..
I'm determined to study very very hard. MUST LAH!

Meaning less roadshows, less leisure time. But idk who to even support after X leaves. So I guess it will be okay.
hahahhahaa.

Anyway, Mr low chose 5 of us to have a photoshoot about our work attachment with the MOE.
Mine was in the heritage gallery ;D It was a long and tiring one lah. But extra cool.

I'm going to wait till you come back.
Because I'll never be able to stop loving you.
My 2007 was better because you came into my life ;D

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Btw, HAPPY BIRTHDAY JUSTIN ANG!
take care and grow old. ;D

2008-01-02T19:57:00.000-08:00

Bye Year 2007!
you've been filled with memories I love. ;D
Thanks for bringing him into my life. I had doubts here and there, and was sad for this and that.
But he was always the one who's right.

Hello Year 2008!
I'm looking forward to a brand new year ahead.
Feed me more of the Holy Spirit.

I think what was the most amazing thing that happened on New Year day was when Eeloo called me right after the service to talk to me. Never missing me out on anything. And passing the phone to one cg mate after the other.
And what winifred tell me was so touching it made me cry. I love the background voice of almost 500 people walking to prata house and having fun. I think winifred rock and admit it everyone!

Thank God for church family like her. ;D

2007-12-31T04:00:00.000-08:00

WHAT'S UP MAN! It was xavier's last shift today.
Boohoo. I didn't get to call him... BUT, i met him. hahahahah.
right cool, i got him his christmas presents.
A t-shirt and some desserts. ;D

The front ;D

And the back. ;D

okay, i admit. I can't draw.
hahaha.

and some dessert. Oh boo. I screw it big time.
But it's not bad lah. right?

(picture has been deleted due to unexpected circumstances)

and the card from all of us to xavier.

;D allright, i didn't have time to do a better job.
Those words are actually cut out from felt. Sucks big time.

My long long message. I wanted to put a photo of my face there, but it seems to thick skinned. hahahahaha.

Other notes from other fans. X said it on air for you guys.
And he dedicated "Thnks fr th mmrs" to us all.

For: Joanne, Munish, Peiyi, Lydia, Kera, Umairah, Mabel, Raihanah, Joey, MiSoto, Kaying, Kez and Inez. and Me. ;D

and he said he was so touched he was going to cry. hahah.
oh god, i was laughing like shit. I know.. i'm mean.
But it REALLY is funny. Can't be helped.

I called X with the office number and he was pretty shocked.
oh god, he was saying i was abusing it. hahahahah.
He said he was scared everytime that phone rings. hahaha. oh god. i feel like a bad person.

x: hello?
me: hello xavier.
X: who's this?
me: er... guess.
X: huh? oh.. er...
me: oh fine. Winnie.
X: oh winnie! hahaha. I'm always scared when this phone rings. You scared me.
me: oh. hahahahahaha.
x: how did you get this number?

oh god. i scared him. definitely something to blog about.

Man, he had to run down lah. and i got a hug. ;DDD

But you know what? X APPLIED for me to go into the studio while he's doing shift lah.
But the FUCKING SECURITY IS SO DAMN TIGHT and they rejected him. Bloody shit.
I COULD BE IN THE STUDIO WHILE HE DID HIS SIWM FOR THE LAST TIME.
oh god, i hate the fucking security measures they have now.

boo hoo. The day can never be better if that happens. and now, i feel like crying.
WTH.
(on a lighter note, maybe kera and i will go send him off, or have lunch or something. hahahaa. )

oh, by the way.. happy new year eve. TADA.

2007-12-25T21:36:00.000-08:00

Merry Christmas everyone. What's going on!!!

Attended Muttons to Midnite Christmas party right at the studio.
Was amazing man! ;DDDDDD We had in LIVE..

We had pizza and party blowers and party hats and drinks and POISON.
Okay, only kera and I and Stephie had it. Together with the rest of the jocks and some other staff there.
bwahhhh. I was damn sober even after drinking it. And guess what, my whole face was red.
And hot.

We were supposed to go on air one by one. And do what we did on Friday in order to come to the party.
MINE, was damn GROSS.
I will not blog about it. Boo hoo..

Countdown was damn fun! hahaha.
And we went around wishing everyone Merry Christmas.

Then we had Christmas presents exchanged.
Hahah. I think mine's a good one.
I got crackers and a pencil case.

And another box of chocolates from Kera's mum.

Then muttons ask us about our christmas wish and pick me first.

Justin: Winnie! What's your christmas wish?
Me: Er... I... er... don't want _____ to leave for _____
Justin: AWWWWWW. When is he leaving?
Me: Er. jan?
Justin: (said something)
Me: (look at vernon)
Vernon: (smirks at me) Yeah. Not coming back for quite a while huh.

God. I stared at him.

Justin: Huh? What what-
Vernon: ah. nothing nothing. Inside joke, inside joke.

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And before we left, I went to tell vernon I was kidding about the wish thing.
And he went, "Oh no worries, we'll keep it safe. I won't tell ____"
Like MY GOD, how does he even know?

And more party and photos and some poison and PACKUP!
Only stephie, Kera, Meesoto and I, together with some staff cleared up the area.
;D

My huge yellow card to shan and ros.
and the letters from kera and I
and the photo collage I got peiyi to do for shan and rozz.

ARE ALL ON THE BOARD!

Xavier's school. hahaha. Oh man.

THE PINK VAN! What's up man!

Winnie and Kera becomes 987's santa claus.

2007-12-21T23:09:00.000-08:00

Winnie and Kera becomes 987's santa claus. hahaha.

anyway, yes. We made 17 parcels for the whole crew.
They consist of: Dan,Young,Desiree, Shan, Ros, Soo, Vernon, Justin, Emily, Xavier, Jacqui, Ms Vandetta, Mark, Yanie, Colin, Adeline and Yvonne, the intern working there. ;D

Took my life away when doing it. But it was fun doing with Kera.
Let the pictures do the talking.

We wrote them a long letter accompanied by the photos i gathered and gathered forever.

Kera trying to write the ultra long letter. booo ;D

In a mini bag, it consist of 1 m&m's, 2 heart shaped sweets, 1 packet drink, 1 candy cane and 1 special item just for the person.

We got:
a donut keychain for vernon
a banana keychain for justin
4 guitar picks for shan
a recorded tape for soo
a special pen for mark
musical stationarys for colin
a badge for jacq
a chocolate bar for vanessa, the intern

for desiree, ros, yanie, adeline, emily and ms vandetta, we gave them this badge.
HANDMADE :D

for dan and young and x, there's something more special for them from kera and me respectively.
And I brought them all the way down to mediacorp. boo hoo.

And guess what, shan sang us a song on air. FOR US. woohoo.
With the guitar picks we gave him. And ros loves the package.
mr mun said they are damn touched. haha

and yes, when I was chilling at night and listening to muttons at midnight,
i actually got a chance to visit the studio and countdown christmas with them.
fucking cool. ;D

i'm going to enjoy myself with my bitch.

2007-12-16T14:45:00.000-08:00

NEWS FLASH:

;D Xavier got himself facebook.
hahhahahaa.

OMG! Danika and I really couldn't believe it.
And what's more, the reason why he joined facebook was not because everyone's been calling him to join.
It was because Jacq told him that desiree has a video in her facebook account that has x in it. And he can't watch it without having an account. And he so got to watch it.
So he signed up. Oh man, when he told me about it, I laughed out damn loud. hahaha.

Anyway, he'll be leaving back to US by this year.
So his last Say It With Music will be on the 29th dec.
BOO HOOO )):

At least I got through yesterday too.

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Did some christmas bakes too. ;D
Gingerbread Christmas Tree!

The icing you see is actually a royal pain to do.
But it was worth it. But I'm not much of a huge gingerbread fan.
boo hoo.
Boo. ;D

2007-12-12T03:45:00.000-08:00

looks familiar?

winner gets a prize! ;D

winnie is doing christmas planning.
She loves gingerbread christmas tree. ;D

2007-12-09T23:59:00.000-08:00

Was away for a few days. Busy busy!

Christmas this year is going to be awesome!
My theme for this year is: Black and white.
Unless you're very special. Then it's in other colours. ;D

;D Macarons and cupcakes and cookies and gingerbread man.
It's going to be exciting. I think I'll focus on marcarons. haha
I wish I can send to Danika. Nevermind. I'll get x to give her. BUT, only if he's going back to the US though.

Plus, another year of christmas.
It's so fast. When I was still so on fire.
I'm looking forward to Christmas service! ;DDDDD

so while I'm at it, my bitch owes me ____ in a big red bow in a big red box.
;D
my bitch is kera shawdowe.and she's going to kil me when she sees this. Thank God she's still in Phuket.

anyway, service yesterday was awesome awesome!
I felt that it was just meant for me! Man, I love pastor david shearer.
;D Heh.

and next year sec ones is going to get blasted.
Chocolates for them. Aretha and I just finished discussing it.
:DDDDD

anyway, I just got a new tattoo just now with sister at central.
;D It's not as i expected. Pretty small. But I'm getting another one soon.
One that covers my whole arm. HAHA!

;D Can't wait for tomorrow.
Will be meeting up with Shireen, Jillian and Judith to go back ACM.
And don't forget the bread for the security guard. If you happen to see this though!

2007-12-03T14:53:00.000-08:00

Did i mention that X did morning shift for the whole of last week.
Bloody shit. I got to wake up every morning at 6am just to listen to him.
All the way till 9am when I start my work at ACM.
;D but it's worth it.

I called on Tuesday morning to talk to X. At 6am. Yes, i know, I'm nuts.
Man, it was good. Except there was ______.
Haha. But X offered to sing me a Simple Plan song.
;D

X: Hello!
Me: Hey Xavier.
X: Whose's this?
Me: Winnie.
X: Winnie! Hey. Don't you need to work later?
Me: Yes.
Ms Vendetta: What time?
Me: 9am.
X: 9AM? But it's only 6am. What the hell are you doing so early in the morning?
Me: listen to you.
X: Awww... thanks.
Ms Vendetta: Are yo nuts? You have work at 9am, and you're waking up to listen to X at 6am? Don't you need to sleep?
Me: yeah. But I promised I'll listen. haha.

And I called in last night too.
I disrupted his flow man. We talked so long that he didn't have time to edit my conversation.
So he had to go on with the sms dedication first.
So the next conversation was pretty long later. ;D

Ho ho. But I did have an awesome conversation with X.
He wanted feedback from the shift he did in the morning. So I told him.
Heh heh. The conversation is so funny. ;D

2007-12-01T19:26:00.000-08:00

Work attachment at Asian Civilisation had ended.
It was good. Better than I expect. ;D and it changed my perspective of history and museum.
;DDDDDD

I worked with Shireen, Judith and Jillian.
And Hsiao Feng was my mentor. And you should see the stuff we got him to thank him.
I love it so much I didn't want to part with it. Haha.

We did mostly research on
1. Buddha's mudra,
which has a current exhibition at ACM.
2. Journey to the West + Chinese opera
which a new exhibition will be set up in few weeks time.

We did surveys too. 200 surveys!

Made friends with a lot of other staff there.
Mostly was the office people. Then some security guards.
It was so fun listening to their stories and all the fun stuff we came out with.

The work was slack and we were so productive that Hsiao Feng ran out of things to let us do.
And we could play with the artefacts. ;D
oh yeah, and did I mention I got myself a fake tattoo on sunday? It's damn cool.

[ insert photos from shireen's phone ]

and the last day, we spent time taking photos and going galleries after galleries.
talking to the staff there and our presentation.
It was scary man. ;D

anyway, the 2 weeks was a memorable experience.
Always thinking of what to have for lunch at 9.30am in the morning. Chippy and our craziness.
Walking all the way to Central when we go home. Our loud heels clinking clonking on the wood.
Our laughter and jokes. And hating "DAISY". haha. and always going to the library.
;D

2007-11-18T01:43:00.000-08:00

Lime Sonic Bang was supposed to the BLAST for this weekend.
But I realised the more you anticipcate, the more it turn worst.

Jbone didn't turn up. (although I got Sawloser's merch too)
X didn't do SIWM.
I'm actually worked from 10pm to 12am.
I'm starting my work attachment on Monday.

Asian Civilisation Museum. How boring can things get?
That's fucking shit.

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At least, we camwhore a little. ;D
and I can't believe I actually had a pretty long conversation with young. (of course, that excludes Kera who has Ultra long ones with young that I can never win. And the losses are not worth it. Trust me. I learn the hard way. haha; )
hahaa, about ___ and WWE and Russel Peters.
We were imitating him. ;D

Me: Young, whose your favourite WWE superstar?
Me: Shaun Michael?
Young: Not so much of him, but I change time to time.
Young: I'm kind of weird you know. For now... I like Randy Orton, despite him being a bad guy.
MeeSoto: He's a jackass
Young: hahaha. yeah. But you can't deny he's good

and I decide to take up Desiree's lunchtime hook-up
"MAKING THE BAND". I'm not so sure if I'm ready for drums.
I think I rap better. HAHA!

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and I realised, missing him doesn't hurt that much anymore.
Blimey, it still does. But not that much anymore.
just maybe before you leave, we could just sit down over for coffee?

Kera's right. Time heals all wounds. Although the scars might be deep.

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I've been thinking these days.
How much, just how much have you turned behind and stabbed me at the back?
I think I love you too much, you're taking an advantage.
Bloody asshole.

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WOO. I just checked Yanie's blog and the cookie I baked for her before FFAF was posted in her blog.
heh heh. I LOVE YANIE. She's so sweet.

I shall bake her something sweet for her birthday. ;DDDDDDD

2007-11-14T22:11:00.000-08:00

;D thanks Raihanah. This is awesome.
[ Hui Ni is actually my chinese name ] and I thought,
hey, why not both. Its so cool.

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I can't believe Kera sent me "Your guardian Angel" by RJA and it turns out that there's a BEP song at the ending.
Oh man. That spoils the whole mood rotten.
I was just thinking, like I did on Sunday-Monday. Full 17 hours.
and suddenly BEP pops out of no where. WTH.

Anyway, Lime sonic Bang! just this saturday.
I can't wait for Sawloser + Jbone special
I'm going to get a lot more. And wear their tee.

Before popping off at 7pm.
Studio work. And maybe I'll meet X after that for supper.
:D I hope. Just sit down and talk and eat. He never eats man.
and since I'll be going there and buy dinner back for the peeps, i'll get him some too.

Maybe I'll get food from CHOMP!CHOMP!
i love food from chomp chomp. ;DDDDD

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anyway, when Kera was at studio today for the Radio academy thing.
She walked past 987 studio. AND, she saw the card I made for Shan and Ros pinned up on the board.
HO HO HO. I know its cool.
Haven't had a chance to ask Shan how it was.

Catch him at lime sonic then. OH YEAHHH :D

here it is! Ho ho. I can't spell at 3am in the morning.

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I FEEL THE PRESENCE OF GOD LINGER OVER ME.
I HAD THE URGE TO JUMP & WORSHIP GOD. oh yeah.

Allright. Come on. Give it to me.

2007-11-11T20:49:00.000-08:00

To love a person, is to accept everything about the person.
I accepted him being a hardcore drinking.
I'm trying to accept him being a hardcore smoker.
Now, you ask me to accept him as a troule maker? Fighting a lot?
This is insane.

But you just can't tell how much I love you.
Maybe not. You just never knew.

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I called xavier. Oh, the whole thing was kinda crap.
I had a deal with my sister. If I called through, supper tonight will be on me.
Oh what shit, why can't it be last night? bummer.

HAHAHA. We didn't record on air though.
We just talked. For a full long time.
But what I wanted to say never came out. He had to pick up another call anyway.
Caught him at a bad time huh?

we'll see how. Everything's gonna be allright.
Maybe we'll talk sooner than I expect. ;D

OH HAHAHAHAHA. THE POSTER I MADE HIM FOR HIS BIRTHDAY IS PASTE ON HIS WALL.
hahahahah ;D

WHERE'S THE TROPHY BEST FRIEND?

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p.s- silent hill is a fucking awesome game.
it scares the shit out of me. But brother likes it and introduced it to me.
However, the way he tells me everything made me feel prepared of what is coming up.
But still...

2007-11-11T01:48:00.000-08:00

OLD FART IS LEAVING ME ):
allright, it's still not offical..

Maybe.. whatever I've done is still too little to count.
It's pretty sad huh? I feel like a failure. And maybe, i'm one.
Fuck it. You're outta my life.

oh. how i wish it's true.

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Finished some job at studio and bought more apple strudel.
Turns out, we got 3 and 1/2 loaf left. So while waiting for dad to pick me up at 9.30pm, I ate 1 half loaf.
And I still had another 1 half loaf that I gave to X when I saw him.

The funny thing is when I met him, he was in a cab, leaving already.
And he saw me so he told the taxi driver to drop him off and he came to wait with me.
He needed food, and i forgot i had smaller chocolate cookies in my bag. Yup.
So he didn't eat the apple strudel like THERE. But he brought it home. haha.

He said I was going to get him fat. That's Danika and my aim. HAHAHAHAHA.
speaking about Danika, we talked on webcam video call for an hour plus in the afternoon, night for her since she stayed in US. hahahaha. It was cool.
Damn awesome and funny as well. She resembles a lot like x.
And we were talking about, AHEM. ;D she's lovely.

Anyway, X offfered to bring me back into the studio to wait because it was dangerous but I ditched my dad and called a cab.
So yeah... Kera wanted to talk to him but her phone line was busy. So, there goes your chance.

I had pretty much a lot of things to ask him, but i forgot when I met him.
It was... pretty sad though. ;D at least, for once, we could talk like one to one, hmm...

oh, and x was one of the few who noticed that I cut my hair.
He say it was nice though. ;D I like it a lot myself. TATATATATATA.

2007-11-07T19:36:00.000-08:00

Met up with Raihanah today! My ex-emcee partner.
She's damn cute allright. At first, when i went there, we were afraid that we won't see Justin since it has come down to the last 4 contestants of the Subaru Challenge.
wow man. The females are awesome. Heh heh.

The male winner was out already when I reached. And there was three females left standing.

Anyway, went down got BLIZZARD, man.
I love that treat. ;DDDD And Justin was there when we came out.
He was there since 3.30pm,

Raihanah got gingerbread man for Justin and Vernon.
And we talk quite a lot.

Man, Justin always say i'm the mastermind behind all these.
LET ME REPEAT ALL THESE AGAIN. I, Winnie Ang am not the mastermind behind all these goodies that you think I am.

Justin:" Aiya. Everything winnie's fault lah."
Me: **Raise hands and look horrified + innocent = the totally screwed up look**

I'm glad Raihanah met one half of mutttons. LIKE FINALLY. ;D
and i reckon Justin broke the head of the gingerbreadman cookie that Raihanah gave vernon. hahahaha. or he ate it up. AGAIN.

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Anyway, I finally could upload my photos.
Although I didn't get one of x with the trophy, but hey. I got the poster.

That's the poster-card i get for xavier for his birthday. all hand made.
;D

[ That's 10 reasons why you should listen to Xavier Teo ]
No worries, having a sexy voice is included. Ho ho ho.

p.s - Oh danika. Your "ho ho ho" is so influenctial ;P

SOO+Baru

2007-11-04T19:29:00.000-08:00

I got a new haircut. It's BOB literally with two strands of hair from the back.
Till now, all that have seen it loved it. Except the prefects. Heh heh.
;DDD

Anyway, MCR auditions were crap yesterday. Actually, not really.
Instead of singing and stuff, it was actually interview. And I met Vanessa.
Ms Vendetta to be exact. She said that I was good to create a "You think 987FM part-timers got no facegroup group" group in facebook.
YEAH. Show them the part timers power. Heh heh.

Helped Soo to bring some stuff to Ngee Ann right after that since Inez and I was going there too.
Soo's an ultra cool person. We were singing "Empty" by Click Five while walking.
Lots of expression eh. ;DDDDDDD

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Subaru Challenge was pretty much a waste of time.
Dan was hosting with Flying Dutchman when I arrived. Talked a bit, and walked around a bit.
Had quite a long talk with Mr Mun, Inez and Justin.
About all the jokes and stuff.

Met Mark Richmond and gave him a cookie.
Inez and I thought he was working all day and needed a break.
Chatted pretty long. Man, mark is an awesome guy. THUMBS UP :D
And he shared a lot about his vision for teenagers and things about Muttons.
Man, I never knew so much about Muttons. They're really good.

Whoa, Mark is good. He was telling me all the events that's coming up and stuff he's doing to do.
and he told me to go along with my Magazine idea. YEAHHHHHH :D

And unfortunately, Mark forgot to take his phone that he puts next to him on the seat.
Some nice guy passed it to me and I immediately returned to mark.
Blasted. I should have check and take out all the jocks numbers. hahahaa.

But I could just ask from X if I want it. HAHA.

anyway, Inez badly wanted Vernon to prank call her mum to wish her happy birthday.
haha, and vernon was inside which we couldn't go in. So i went up to the security and asked him to bring vernon out.
HAHAHAHAHAHAH. it was hilarious. But vernon did it and we had fun talking.
;D I love vernon's tattoo. WOOOOO

Tomorrow is a good day to die.

2007-10-30T19:28:00.000-07:00

Despite the fact that it's HALLOWEEN tomorrow, it's my Chinese O'levels too.
I'm screwed. Very very Screwed.

So, may the ghost and vampires come and suck my blood out tonight.
I can't believe I'm ever so scared of an exam before. And that I'm ever going to cry about it.
It's shit.

Anyway, let's declare a little just to make someone happy.
I KNOW ASH'S GIRLFRIENDDDDDD.

yes, and if you're wondering who the hell is Ash.
He's the lead singer of By Def from Live The Dream.
Right, girlfriend?? hmph.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. I think she's going to kill me for it.
But then again, I'm going to die, so who cares if she kills me.
It's just a matter of now or later. ;DDDD

I can't believe I put a happy face.

2007-10-27T23:44:00.000-07:00

okay, while I'm at it.
I SHOULD DECLARE A PUBLIC APOLOGY TO XAVIER TEO.
hahahaha. He has been filming and HENCE, been busy and well...
so those who do know Xavier and I personally, you'll get it and you'll think he deserves this apology.
heh heh. i feel so bad now..

but it's okay. he's a nice guy.. and considered how much I bribed him.
He should be nice back.
so yeah! That's about it.

And talking about him being busy, that explains why he didn't go for click five showcase.
And talking about it, let's talk a little about the click five showcase.

In fact, to me, it was pretty disappointing. Because MOS totally do not know how to arrange and so many of us queued in vain for hours. arghhh.

kyle was all emo and ego. I think ethan is more fun.
;D had a little chat with the muttons. ahahaha. Here's the best part.

There was this bunch of girls talking to vernon and I just went up and talk to him.
And we were pretty close, so we were laughing and talking crap.
And the girls gave me the "Why are you so close to vernon" look.
hahahaha. so I went to ask if Vernon knows Inez. haha. Vernon gave me this "You underestimate me" look.
;DDDDDD

they hosted the show.

2007-10-23T15:34:00.000-07:00

don and drew - bouncy bouncy smack smack.

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Night Safari Halloween Horrors ;D
it's ultra awesome and cool. I'm so going to go.

I'll most probably go with sister.

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young's giving me tickets for click five showcase.
;D its awesome.

I didn't even win it. I think brother might want to go.
I still have 3 tickets. ;D i think. hahahaha.

wonder if x will be going. but click five is so not his type.

neither is kera. she just want to see her boys. heh heh.

and old fart still refuses to reply. I will dunk his head in toilet bowl if i'm ever given the chance.
I swear. ;D

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I'm here feeling like shit now. I feel like a jerk.

I know I should try to accept other people like how she accepts my friends, but I just don't know how. I tried. I will try harder.

i bet she doesn't even know. And as mummy always tell me... when you have chose to let go, you got to, or you'll feel only worse.

But now that she got another friend there for her, I feel better already.

At least she could turn to her when she got trouble... not me. I'm a jerk.

She's keeping things from me? idk. I feel like shit not being able there for her.

I think i really am a jerk, a lowdown skunk. She's having fun now, let her continue.

It's time to carry on and leave.

2007-10-21T22:58:00.000-07:00

National Rap Battle Finals 2007 was awesome.
Although the winner was very obvious. ;D Go Mike buzza, you're great.
Jacq and I supported him all the way. heh heh.

Anyway, the nice cupcakes are finally done and gave to x.

He shared it among the jocks last night after the competition.
He said it taste awesome. heh heh.

had fun with don and drew last night. and mike buzza won the rap!
whoa man! he's awesome awesome awesome. Freestyle was great.
[insert photos here]

and talked quite a lot with x, about the presents and he likes them.
he say it was awesome and anyway, he was at thailand with his family.
he likes the poster and award a lot. ;DDD
of course, I spent hours in it man!

TEN REASONS WHY YOU SHOULD LISTEN TO XAVIER TEO.
I forgot what I wrote. But it was on the poster.

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Now I'm here blogging, as I listen to X do SIWM and at the same time, trying to reply danika. ;DD
and amazingly, i got him. yayy! Talk quite some time but he was rushing through,
so we didn't talk much. get him back through email ;D

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my head's all confused now. I'm thinking of what to say.
I'm faced with a heartbreaking situation. I don't want, you know I don't.

I still love you as my sister babe!

2007-10-15T00:03:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY XAVIER!
you turn 28 today ;D

ahah. old guy.

I hope you like the award and the poster.
and transformer mask and pen.
and cake in cup!

its all hard work. but its worth it.
;D

2007-10-14T12:09:00.000-07:00

Hello kera!

RAP IS SO MY THING. ;D

2007-10-14T02:34:00.000-07:00

I end all my papers on wednesday and went to the dentist.
It wasn't that bad actually ;DDD
got to go catch some time to dye and cut my hair.

been busy with xavier's birthday present.
I never knew it was going to take so long. My back's aching and my eyelids are drooping but I'm still blogging.

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lunch-ing with yassy on thursday was awesome. ;D
we went parkway parade. and check it out, i took a bus from my house to woodlands to transfer to another bus,
then realised the bus actually goes my house.

yeah, i know. I'm dumb. HAHAHAHAHA.

we talked a lot, went to check out the toys in tangs.
I know i know, we're big kids. ;]]]]

then we went back to church!! went to office and just stayed there to chat with some leaders.
it was good. valerie is the funniest person man!

and service today was BLAST man! I missed so many times. Finally got a chance to go back church.
like WOOHOOOOOO ;D
wanted to stay longer and hang out but got to rush for rap battle championship.

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Semi-finals of Rap Battle championship was great.
Though not as fun as the first phrase. But it was good.
I like one of them, he's really talented. I hope he wins next week.
jacq thinks so too. HAHAHAHAHA.

Kera passed Xavier his presents. I just forgot to give him the transformer mask until later when i'm inside.
OPTIMUS PRIME! haha. he wore it and jacq took a photo of it. and with that so extra cap he has.

anyway, i hope he likes the stuff. i think the award is the KICK-ASS part. hahahaha.
yes kera, i know you'll read this. I feel so bad about the poster after you told me it was gay and stalkerish. Like oh man, it hurts because i put in so much effort.
But he's not like you, so HAHA.

got a hug from jacq and catching up with her.
she's really awesome too. and funny. ;D

anyway, most of the rappers remember me! ;D
of course, i was the only girl during the first phrase.

Kera has to leave early, Inez and I slacked off and ate Turkish ice cream.
I love the lemon one! ;D

2007-10-07T02:13:00.000-07:00

yes. i finally have time to sit down and blog about today.
i opened this page at 10.14pm, and its 12.31am. not too bad huh?
[[[;

so currently, I'm blogging, chatting with kera on the phone, mabel on msn, joanne on moblog, myspace, friendster, facebook.
and by the time this post is uploaded, it will be 2am. check if i'm right ;D

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good experience, new friends, fun day.
national rap battle championship was great ;D

i didn't get to the top 10, but it was good experience.
i think i'm the youngest there. AND, the only girl.
let me repeat that, only girl.

i screwed my whole freestyle. and i changed my linkin park's in the end
to xavier's tough to be dead.

oh man, his expression was priceless.
when i rapped the first two words, he knew it, he was shocked at it,
and he smiled like crap. it was good.

and he was honored allright. damn honored.
its HIS RAP.

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me: hey xavier
xavier: hello. have you met?
me: you were the one who told me to come.
xavier: oh. WINNIEEEEEE! (bear hug)

we had fun. yes. lots of fun ;DDD talking crap.
supporting others. whoaaa

Xavier declared me to be his bestest bestest best friend.

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there was a lot of people who were supporting me,
because i was the one girl. so thanks to all [[[[[[;

really big thanks for kez, his friend, kera, inez, xavier, adrienne and all those who were supporting me throughout ;D
and smses from trishna, sarah, elizabeth, raihanah, joanne and others.

and the new friends i made there.
kez, your AIR CON friend ( ;D he's a damn funny guy! ), mabel, 2 girls from the rapping competition(they didn't join at first, but it was too late after that), there was many others, but i forgot.

oh ya... MR MUN!!!

photos;

bestest bestest bestest friend ;]]]]]

thats jacqui ;DDDD

FAIRY GODMOTHER ;D

2007-10-05T23:52:00.000-07:00

allrighttt,
tomorrow is the big day,
I'm still hesistating. yes iknow, i'm fickle-minded.

I'll be taking part in a rap competition at plaza singapura tomorrow
1pm onwards
so come down and support me

yes, i've gathered supporters and banners and cheers.
[[[[[[;

and i can rap, thankyou!

2007-09-29T18:20:00.000-07:00

-The difference between a successful person and others is not a lack of strength, not a lack of knowledge, but rather is a lack of will. -

Lose the battle, but win the war.

Exams have started. Let's do the mugging!
;D for i know it would be worth it.
Its the last lap for this year!

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and while studying, mummy and I decided to take some photos
its so cool. I love mummy!
(:

its the cap-a-mania

mummy is now overseas. boohoo )))):

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i must remember to take part in natgeowildlife!

2007-09-24T22:14:00.000-07:00

I have to proclaim this man.
Pastor Joakim and our church is the hottest in the world.
Almost everyone start having facebook!
Its really awesome and I love it. HAHAHA ;D

oh yeah. more church right after exams.
I can't wait to usher and for youth camp!
woohoo! ;DDDDD

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Idk if i should take part in the national rap battle championship.
its something i'm both good at, and like.
i don't think many people can rap yo!

maybe i'll go. if i have supporters.
yeppppp ;DDDDDD

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Idk whether i can stand this any longer. It breaks me apart.
You have your own, so why did you interfere on mine?
Do you know how hard it was just to get it, then you come spoiling it because you got a better one than me.
It breaks me apart, it does. And i feel lost.
because you're my friend. and i don't want to hurt you.

don't come gloating to me what you have done with mine. Because i don't want to know.
Because i don't deserve to get hurt. Because I didn't hurt you.
i hate the way you do this to me):

2007-09-22T03:52:00.000-07:00

*Crashes through window*

Must.... Blog.... Today....

Kinda dramatic eh? I kind of get it through Xavier's email back to me. So he's dramatic, not me.
But yeah, he is. He's an actor.
But its just that its suppose to be “Must reply email” instead of “Must blog today”
Am I making sense? But hell, sense at this time is kinda optional.

And here I am, sitting down and yanking at my brains to think of creative ideas for ___'s birthday. That in fact, would be the most useful thing, that I can apply to the later part of my life ,that I did tonight. It sucks, but yeah.

I don't even think I’ll get to meet and pass ___ those stuff. Which is pretty pathetic. Talk about giving my best and killing my brain cells. But my brain cells are kind of sleeping right now, so better not disturb them. Okay. I'm a lunatic for now.

I thought of cupcakes. Like literally cakes in cups. ;D
and tower cookies. and party hats. and an award. and a tshirt. and 25 reasons and a letter.
okay. That kinda suck.

(: i love mummy. she's so cute.
she came out with weird ideas.
and i went out with mummy yesterday. ;DDDD

she'll be off to overseas next saturday. not good DDDDD:

2007-09-19T00:31:00.000-07:00

POICE!POICE!POICE!
;D

i love saying this man! with that deep down voice.
woohoo. it's the way brendogs and stu says it. hahah.
HARDY.HARDY.HOUSE.PARTY!

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY ChenZhi!
;D

I messaged muttons to give her a song dedication,
but muttons called me back and we decide to call her back.

she was so damn excited! ;D
hahaha!

i hope you have a great birthday because I know YOU LOVE MUTTONS!
i know the birthday wish is the BEST BIRTHDAY WISH.

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Thanks _____, for forever being there for me.
You seem so far away, yet i know you're there.
the stuff you tell me is the truth and not what i want to hear.
My friend might seem to think you're never there and you're only entertaining me because I am a kid but no,
it was from the bottom of your heart. i know it. i just do.

2007-09-16T14:54:00.000-07:00

I didn't get to call xavier last night.

but all talking with kera was really retarded.
she got him, i didn't.
And the funny thing is, all the emotional songs kept playing.
And I was singing all along, hahah.

But not let it affect me. hahah. funny how things works.
The more you want to get your hands on something, you'll never get it.

i'll just get him through mails then.
;D

kera just sent me "China and X" phone challenge.
wow. I'm suppose to like it, (right kera?)

2007-09-13T14:12:00.000-07:00

I'm going to blog about what sam cooper did to trishna.
;D

i'm sick, but yes, i'm doing this for her.

sam cooper SMILED AT TRISHNA one to one.
he smiled at us too, but it was a group smile.
but he smiled at trishna one to one.

no, that point of time, we didn't get it.

Sam cooper gave trishna a bear hug.
we got it too, but he gave her ONE BIG HUG. just for her.
i'm not complaining, i've got lots from jbone.

and i'm waiting for ____ to give me one too ;D
seems like both kera and trishna got one from who they like,
i just don't. But I'm patient.

and, when sam cooper was saying that the next song was about a girl he met at japan,
we shouted TRISHNA, and

during one song when she shouted, i think im falling for you , you , you you , then sam sang back to her " i think im falling in love! and then he pointed!

can you see whats the good part?
SAM COOPER, LOOKS DOWN AT TRISHNA AND SMILED AT HER AND POINTS AT HER. and sang to her.
thats the best part. I think.

she got photos with sam, their signatures, oh yeah.
Trishna is in Sawloser's top friends in myspace.
(:

oh yeah, look, this is the BEST PART. (I thnk all of the parts are good ;D )
when the whole concert end, sam told trishna this; look i'm quoting showing how important this is

"trishna thanks for all your support and all the guys and i always know we could rely on you."

that was the sweetest thing trishna ever heard, i swear. and he gave her a BEAR HUG too.
i know she's happy, because ____ said that to me before too. ;D

its good. (: and till here.

2007-09-09T13:37:00.000-07:00

I'm going to blog about a few things before I run to study and get prepared for tomorrow.
First, sawloser concert.

IT WAS AWESOMEEEE :DDDDDDD
I didn't go to Funeral For a Friend's concert because there was too much moshing.
So I went to sawloser. It was good.

and its all Trishna's fault, that I like Sawloser ALOT now.
(: okay. I got a lot, i mean seriously, a lot of badges and they were the "J-something" Special.
And he gave me lots of hugs because I got a lot of his specials. Haha.
(: It was good.

And that guy, Brendon? He's really nice and he kept making us buy the merchandise.
woo ;D

oh, i love fazeena, my photo partner and free hugs partner.

that's jimmy. the guitarist.

and during the intermission, i suddenly got very hyper(:
I think its got to do with the green tea i drank.

I was just being crazy, jumping around and screaming.
:D

other pictures of them in the concert,

(:

okay, i'm going to run to reply xavier, do up some random stuff.
and study(:

2007-09-06T20:25:00.000-07:00

I wanna love you, you already know,
I know you see me looking at you and you already know.

I love you OLord, I don't know how I can show.
But its this much, and I want to tell you.

You're an awesome awesome God!
(:

Even if you take a knife and put it on my throat, asking me to proclaim that God doesn't exist,
I would rather die. Because I can never accept the fact or proclaim He is fake.
Because HE IS REAL(:

i look to YOU when I'm afraid, when I'm jealous, when I'm sad, when I'm broken, when I'm dying inside, when I'm cheated, when I'm angry, when I'm hurt, when I'm feeling negative.

This is enough to tell me,

" 'For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the Lord, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.' "

Jeremiah 29:11

2007-09-06T15:17:00.000-07:00

I'm going to blog. Then I'm going to mug hard for EOYs.
(: Thats a promise.

funeral for a friend concert. idk if i should go.
its a moshing event. idk.idk.idk.

i mean, the reason why i'm going is because i want to see him.
but i don't even know if he's going. he isn't replying me.
come to think of it, i don't even think he cares about it.
it all suck. i'm not wasting 75 bucks just to go see if he's there.
and idk why i'm supporting him so much.
i'm just pure 100% dumb.
he's nice. he's good. but its all.....

i think its good he's not replying. it makes me drift off further.
and let me focus on God. (:

I love you God and i want to submit my 100% to you.
(:

My past is reedemed, My present has a purpose, My future is secured.
:DDDDDDDDDD

2007-09-05T00:45:00.000-07:00

I had an ultra cool tuition today.
my tuition teacher rock man.
we're doing chemistry, and its good.

we were talking about lemon and metal plates/
coke and mentos.

i'm going to go that experiment!(:
and microchips and animals.

2007-09-03T13:22:00.000-07:00

I really really love my red nails :D
it looked gay, but its cool.

but the only thing is that i have to remove it tonight.
there's higher chinese remedial tomorrow.
bleagh.

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its raining again):
its always raining.

which keeps me in the house. so i can study.
my mum says i have weird hormones. hahaha.

she says that sometimes when my hormones acts weirdly, i want to study and can study a lot.
or that if i feel like running, i can run a lot.
and she loves this hormones. because i study.
(: mummy is so cute.

allright, i'm going to study hard now. yes.
i'm listening to AKON :D

2007-09-02T22:03:00.000-07:00

On September 2nd 2007, I submit my life to God again. This time, its 100%.
Thank you Lord. (:

Church was fun today. Had daytona challenge.
and i painted my nails RED(: its oh so cool.
it's czone RED event. woohoo. i love the funky color.
i took some random photo.

it looks like orange here):

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anyway, pastors sermon was really cool today.
blessings and curses.
I WILL STOP CURSES COMING DOWN MY GENERATIONS!

let me be on fire again, o Lord

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oh, did i mention that i tore my skin and flesh when i fell on a sharp edge?
): one leg is normal, the other bloody. HAHAHA :D

2007-08-29T22:00:00.000-07:00

i'm so screwed for tomorrow's higher chinese test.
i'm so unprepared. argh. its all shit.

i'm feeling so tired now. Both physically and mentally.
Just quit it, would you? I'm not going to act as if nothing is happening.
It is happening. And I know it.

I hate the way you treat me like a kid. It sucks.
You're hurting me the way I didn't even dare hurt myself.
I don't want to keep thinking that there's hope for me when i know there isn't.
You crushed it, then rebuild it. It sucks.
Its so painful and I'm never going to recover if I'm not careful.
I want to stop liking you. Go away.
Get out of my life.

sorry, i'm emo.

2007-08-27T00:31:00.000-07:00

I had a great day today. Thanks so much kera. You made it happen.
Idk what to do without you. My life would be a little bit messed up.
Considered God and family will take my entire life away.

Discussed teacher’s day cookies with peiyi today.
She's coming my house to bake cookies for teacher's day on thursday evening. can't wait.
Rounded up to stuff like work and literature.
She’s doing Joy Like Club for the literature. And we were watching it during English.
It’s complicating enough when we’re watching it. Whats worst on reading it.
I’m glad I’m doing TKAM.

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You see, I had a great dream that day. (:
And I had the same great dream today.

Dreams may not be real, but it they are great.
Your dreams will come true, if you believe.
Don’t ask me to stop building sandcastles in the air, its only because of that, can I build the real castle on land.

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Met up with kera at plaza sing today. And she practically hogged up the whole guitar hero 2 xbox. I think the guy seriously hate us now, hahaha.
I bugged her to leave, got her shoes in like 3 minutes. Left for starbucks.
We seriously screwed up the whole area, messing around.
Used laptop and check out some great photos. We were acting crazily.

Allright. It was fun and okay till here.

I couldn’t get Xavier the whole night. Nope. Not at all.
And to think it was his last shift.
So, good woman and punk kid KERA messaged Xavier to call me.
And Xavier indeed call me. The whole thing was so funny.

His number was private number. Kera’s number is also private number.
So i thought Kera called me and I was feeling like shit. And I was so shocked when it was Xavier’s voice. He told me everything and yeah.
He decided to break the rules for me. Just for me. I was perfectly speechless.
He said I bribed him. Well, thank you. At least, you gained a lot. HAHAHA.

So he decided to ask me to fake a name. I was like, okay.
We wanted to fake his sister’s name. but it was a mouthful.
So we changed to jane. And I was like, forget it. I’ll change to ______.

We talked about acting like bad kids.

Allright. And he will not be doing the morning shows anymore! WOOHOO.
Vanessa or van wants to do the show alone.
SO XAVIER WILL CONTINUE SIWM

Which is good. I’ll call him again soon.
Or email him or something. (:

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I hate feeling happy while you’re sad. Tell me what I can do to make you happy like me.
I want to share. Idk what I can do.
I don’t like the feeling of feeling happy while you’re sad. It sucks. Let me help you.

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I want to run away. To somewhere where i can find
my bald red shirt guy wearing a cap.

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Rememeber, ily, KERAAAAAAAAA

I promise I’ll try not to bug you to go away from guitar hero 2.
I’ll try. Doesn’t mean I won’t. HAHAHA(:

2007-08-24T20:10:00.000-07:00

This post is dedicated just for Kera Shadowe Dawn Chua Mei See

I had a good day today. supposedly.
until i met Kera.

who suddenly popped up with crazy ideas of bring donuts for young.
arghhhh. and she made me do it because I was free.
and it was Krispy Kremes. (: good stuff.

she bribed me. and make me look like a fool in the bus.
i didn't even agree. she agreed for me.

but they are good stuff. so who's complaining?
(: allright. thanks kera.

and it won't be spoilt. Don't worry okay!
:DDDDDDD

2007-08-24T20:05:00.000-07:00

Brother called this morning at 2am+ 3am?
he's probably at Orinda or Oregon or California or Canada.
somewhere far away from singapore.

it was all shit, he asked me if I wanted to help out at GC.
i said no. idk why i said that.
but hell, the whole thing would probably end at 4am?
like FOB's concert.

if its Click five. I would.
i totally forgot to ask him about it.

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i want to go SAWLOSER. for the first time, i'm pretty addicted.

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goodbye to Xavier with "say it with music"
hello to xavier with "weekend mornings"

i'm trying my best to be good(: and disciplined.
even if it means sacrificing my sleep and wake up early in the morning.

that sucks. but he needs to know i'm there supporting him.
and listening to her at the same time makes me puke.

bleaghhhhh

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cobra starship

- pop-punk is sooooo '05

2007-08-19T21:22:00.000-07:00

Give me a call and it will be okay.
says O Lord.

I put my trust in you. Because I know you'll be there.
You made me lose so much, to prove that you're there for me.
You were. But I am depressed for my lost.

Thank you Lord, for being who you are.
I left you once, but you linger upon me.
I saw you in a far distance but i was hesitant.

now, they are gone. No more obstacles but you and me.
I'm never going to leave you again. I wil cling onto you.

say goodbye to heavy metal and vulgar
say hello to christian lifestyle. I know i'll be okay!

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my last concert. I'll be helping out.
backstage passes.

2007-08-19T01:47:00.000-07:00

I just got back from Akon concert at downtown east. Was trying to get the tickets from young.
But he gave them out at 6pm while I reached at 6.15pm.

Anyway, saw young and desiree coming out of the mall. Talked a bit. Called Aretha.
We wanted to buy the tickets but some weird guys decided to give us because he has 2 extra complimentary tickets.
Woo hoo.

The concert was supposed to start at 7.30pm. It did.
But some other Djs and rappers were performing. All the way till 9.15pm did Akon really come out.
So Aretha and I slacked and decided to go out to chill out.
Was walking out when we saw young and was asking and talking about Akon and stuff.
We were laughing at how cheater bugs they were. Saw shan as well.

Anyway, I met soo and yanie outside(: soo and I were talking about cupcakes. HAHA. And met up with Justin and Desiree and Don.

Talked to shan and introduced him to Aretha. The conversation was stupidly funny.
I bet shan remembers me because I’m so super short. He has to bend down to talk to me. Arghhh.

And Aretha thinks ____ is hot. Hahaha. I was laughing like mad.

And I was just being retarded and started calling Xavier whose on shift tonight and I got it.
Talked to him a little, had a few laugh after we’re done with the recording. About friendster and deafcon and other stuff.

Oh yeah, I went deafcon in the afternoon. Was great like hell. (:
I was attempting to ask for liquor at both DXO during Deafcon and at Akon’s Smack that party.
I feel that my stupid short height would give me away.
Arghhhh.

But the concert really rock many. And Aretha had to leave early. So I went alone.
BUT IT STILL ROCK.

Some nice Caucasian asked me if I want to go to the mosh pit and she literally pulled me in till I get to shake hands with akon and he climbed past me. But really suffocating and hot.

I think its really worth going, consider we got it free and I get to shake akon’s hand. (:
Allright, today is a great day!

2007-08-18T13:18:00.000-07:00

I wonder if I should go help out at GC's concert. Or if I should bug him to take up The Click Five's concert.
shit lah. stupid idiot. Provided I'm paid though.

I'm going Deafcon, then Akon.
Mummy has agreed to pay. And aretha is going with me.

I'm still sad at something.
sorry guys, I didn't mean to say it out or whatever gestures might have given away.
really sorry):

There was something I want to do. At the verge yesterday, I nearly did.
If it isn't because I'm under 18, and that it was really late, I would have gotten it.
But I know that would disappoint God and my parents. And I would regret it even if it is to just take one small _____.
I'm not talking about liquor.

its a bloody cold day.

2007-08-17T21:59:00.000-07:00

I think through so many events, I finally came into a conclusion.
Whatever I did, and all the punishment I have to face all leads and it fits.
God wants me to leave IT, and He’s not afraid of hurting me in doing so.
I think God wants me to learn, wants me to appreciate Him more. And not treat Him like some last minute refuge.
I was obsessed over IT, and soon after, many of my friends left. Whatever I did was wrong. What I wanted was never here. IT has caused me all these.

I feel so heartening. I tried to look for an answer other than that.
But no, I can’t find any. It was all there. Straight in my face.

I’m sorry but I have to leave IT. Because staying on is making myself more worst.
I bore so much consequences, and its time I learn.

2007-08-13T22:13:00.000-07:00

I don't know what’s wrong with moblog. It just doesnt like me. Arghhhhh... I posted something and it is gone. Stupid stupid stupid. So I'm coming back to post here.

Idk what I have posted about and I need to hurry go study for Biology and Chemistry test, so I won't elaborate like totally. And not that anyone actually bothers to read them anyway. And I’ve got 2 blogs to post.

Anyway, I've finally upload the photos I took with my phone. And this is the cupcakes for Xavier. Chocolate(:
I know the words are GAGA allright. It just pop into my mind last minute and the hell with it, I’ll just used it.

And and and, Harajuku roadshow at Heeren on Saturday. Oh my gosh, it was hilarious. Trishna and Kera and Ashiya and I were like crazy folks jumping around trying to get the CD hampers. And Trishna and I got it.
Anyway, the show was hilarious and fun and everything and there was a lot of DJ(:
:DDDDD
Not going to elaborate the dumb things we did, but photos(:
theres other photos but I'll just post this.

till here, I'll be back.

2007-08-11T11:56:00.000-07:00

I'M GOING TO CHURCH! I'M GOING TO CHURCH.
I'M GOING TO CHURCHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!

WOOHOOOOOOOOOO

2007-08-10T12:22:00.000-07:00

LETS GET OVER IT(:

BYEEEEEEEE

2007-08-07T23:21:00.000-07:00

yoyoyoyo whats up. I thought I would leave this dead.
but hell, this is dead.
I'm kind of in between blogger and moblog.
I'll update both though.

My mum is some crazy funny fellow but I still love her manymany.
She would open the door and say bye to me, then peep through the crack,
and open the door to say bye to me again. And she keeps repeating it.
(: She's so cute. I love mummy.

Anyway, got some cupcakes for xavier. And the receptionist was damn evil.
I think she was just jealous that she didn't get something like that.HAHA.
sent an urgent mail to xavier to ask him to collect it. and kera was making everything worst when she said that it might be infested with ants.

allrightt, so I tried to call him and I swear, I could not get him at all.
till he called me back because i won the deafcon tickets, which was around 1am?
and we talked for like really long.

From deafcon to cupcakes to CIASCO to other stuff.
Anyway, he totally forgot to take my details for the tickets till I reminded him.
HAHA. So he said he would call me back after the show.

Anyway, he took a long time getting my details done after the show.
Allright, dumb X was making fun of my full name. RARRRR.
and when sms the answer, I was supposed to put my IC number.
but due to typo error, i pressed 3 instead of 9. so my first number was 3.
and he thought i was that old. And he made fun of me AGAIN.

I swear I'll get back. I want my revenge. HAHAHA.

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Xavier is a happy man today. (: He said that on air.
He said about my cupcakes and kera and I was like ZOMG.

cupcakes to fill his stomach. Although the letter kinda suck.
(: I hope he really likes the cupcakes..

2007-08-02T21:38:00.000-07:00

OH MY GOSH(: Hossen Leong is damn funny.
I was browsing through national day stuff when I came across this.

Talking Cock in Parliament.

I love national day :DDDDDD

2007-08-02T17:02:00.000-07:00

Mutton's slot will be taken over by X for 2 weeks.
woohoo(: Anyway, he replied and I called him last night and the night before.
talked about a lot of things. felt pretty good after that.

cupcakes on the way.

I think I might give up blogging.

2007-07-29T00:38:00.000-07:00

STUPID KERA. Always take me as scapegoat.

Went Heeren with her today. Allright. I was the one who wanted to go.
Opening of ToughJeans. Really damn awesome jeans and belts.

Muttons were there and we went late. And Kera dared me to go talk to Vernon with 5 bucks and avenged sevenfold cd. And I won. But I didn’t take it from her.

Talked about new show, stuff like that.
and
Thanks Vernon, for the gift(:

Kera and I took neos. It has been a long long long long time since we took.
It looked retarded and gay. AND KERA OWE ME THE ERHEM one.

2007-07-25T22:16:00.000-07:00

like after ZOMG long time and many frustration acts on dawn,
_____ finally replied.
€
It was like a remedy to dawn's rabies.
((((:

Dawn and I have been acting like morons, or actually DJs. It's all pure crap.
But it was fun.

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Reshufle this week was allrightttt.
I enjoy DAN AND YOUNG in the morning. Although I only get to listen till 7.20am.
And Muttons have been fun to be with. (: I decided to call them during their first SIWM and their first call of the day.

And I didn't feel like being on air. So I told them to not put me on air.
And guess what, they put me on air. I should have known. DAMN.

I sounded stupid. RARRRR(:

I don't know what more to blog.

2007-07-22T01:19:00.000-07:00

Thanks mum. For everything.
:D

I got myself a top and cardigan. And mummy and I went to watch people play the GRAB THE SWEETS game and decide to try. It was funny at how we anticipated watching others trying to get the sweets.
(: mummy is cute.

Talking about it, mummy got me a transformer pen.
It was oh-so-cool.
I really love it - its bumblebee.

And was really curious whose doing SIWM tonight. So I message trishna.
She got back to me, X.

2 things came to my mind at once.

1. ZOMG. X is back. I want to listen
2. He’s an idiot because he still didn’t reply me.

But anyway, I called through. Sorry kera, I know you were trying too.
Next time, I promise I’ll tie my fingers. HAHAHAHAHA.

He promised to reply me tomorrow morning. And he got himself that Mohawk hairstyle.
Its cool okay(: he might shave it next week. But I persuaded him to keep it and he’s going to consider it.

Talked about Harry Potter and the deathly hallows.
(: we were discussing about rowling being psycho. HAHAHA.

And I told him many people started dying and he said I ruined it. HAHAHA.
Its like predictable man. Of course many is going to die.

CAREPACKAGE. CAREPACKAGE. Are you done?
:DDDD

Thanks mum and x for making my day a better one than yesterday.

2007-07-21T15:55:00.000-07:00

Don't say i have no faith.
you ruined it.

Every morning, i wake up and for the first 3 seconds,
everything was fine.

then, it come haunting me. To where it left off last night.

2007-07-21T12:35:00.000-07:00

My hong kong friend wrote to me(: oh my.
It was 5 pages long.

I love JOYCE LO that girl. :DDDDDDD
I shall reply with like 10pages? Hurhur.

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hello? he is not back yet. talk about bad reception? bullshit.
i miss that idiot's voice.

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Goodbye to you - michelle branch.

Talking about it, I got the LAST five at five today.
From next week onwards, its no longer dan and young, 4 to 8pm.
But in the morning.

Dan: OH WINNIE(: you’re really lucky to get the last 5 at 5!
Winnie: OH MY. I’m so sad, I think I’m going to cry soon.
Young: Don’t cry. We’re not leaving, we’re just reshuffling to the morning.
Winnie: I know, but I hate getting up early and there’s school.
Dan: HAHAHAHA. Lazy fellow. Wake up lah.
Young: okay, hold on ah. Starting soon. (sings)
Dan: Winnie, you still there?

And I was caught up with something in my throat, and sounded I was crying. HAHAHA.

Dan: WINNIE. DON’T CRY. Its okay. We love you.
Winnie: I’m not crying. My throat’s stuck. Oh, and I love you guys too.
Dan: its okay, we understand you’ll miss us. :DDDD

Anyway, they were saying I was very emotional. HAHAHA.

And the songs were all either related to GOODBYE or MORNING. And I picked goodbye to you by Michelle Branch.

Allrightttt, hugs to the jocks.

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I wrote this post last night at 10pm. And, I just can’t bear to continue what I wanted to write.
It was just so bad. I cried a lot yesterday. It’s been at least a year since I cried so much, unless you count the passing of my grandfather.

I think people enjoy hurting me. Just so much.

Sorry mum and dad. I’ve disappoint you yet again. I know keeping quiet and everything and hiding away hurts you. Not to mention that dad saw me at cine yesterday, alone.

I’ve lost the trust I had in you.
You left me alone there, waiting like some fucked up fool.

Oh yeah, I feel great. What bullshit.

Seriously, goodbye to you. I can’t look at you in the eye and act as if nothing is ever wrong.
I’m sorry if this hurt you but you hurt me more.
but because I’m immune to pain now, it just numb.

2007-07-16T22:16:00.000-07:00

I’m still waiting here for him to reply. When is he coming back with my J.co donut and coffee? FUCK LAH. I don’t want them anymore. I just want your reply.

Trishna is a funny girl. She could not wait long to get her hands on what Dawn and I planned for her. And when we gave her, oh yeah. SHE WAS SMILING AND LAUGHING LIKE SOME CRAZY OLD POTATO SALAD.

Credits to meeeeeee. And I know you love us like how much. (: That’s I did for her.

I drew this. Then…

Made young hold it. But he felt it was insincere enough. So….

He took another one(((((:

Anyway, reshuffle in 987fm from 23rd July, (which is next week) I’m just going straight to the point.

5am to 10am - Dan and young show
10am to 1pm - Lunch with Desiree
1pm to 4pm - 987 Infohound with Raven
4pm to 8pm - Shan wee and Rosalyn Lee
8pm to 10pm - say it with music with soo
10pm to 12am - Muttons before midnight (continuous of SIWM)
12am to 2am - Muttons after midnight.

Jean’s going to be really happy that soo’s doing SIWM :DDDDDDD

I’m just sad that DAN AND YOUNG is in the morning. RARRRR ):
Xavier will still be doing the weekends show thought. :DDDDDDDDD

Don’t ask me where I get the source. If you know where, good. If you don’t, LOSER.

2007-07-15T22:20:00.000-07:00

As a deer longs for a stream of water,
so do i long for you, O lord.

psalm 42:1

as i flipped through my planner, i had that verse written in it.
But I looked back now.

I feel such a shame claiming a Christian.
The virtue of a Christian had disappeared within me.
I'm bringing shame to church and God.

2007-07-15T14:00:00.000-07:00

Kera is a happy girl
while
Winnie is a sad girl.

just for today? or perhaps tomorrow? or perhaps the day after tomorrow?

2007-07-15T01:49:00.000-07:00

I laughed a lot today. I feel like crying a lot today. I was getting all emo. I hate the way you make me feel like this.

Dawn was talking about ___ is a good guy. But all I think that he is a jerk. Not that he had cheated my feelings or whatsoever.

Allrightttt. Made my way down to Bugis because young and desiree is there for the MAYBELLINE roadshow.

Long story of what Kera did and everything. I WAS LAUGHING LIKE SHIT.

And young hugged kera and me(: Hahahaha. I was so damn shocked.

The chocolate double fudge brownie birthday cake remember? And I was telling him about going back to school for corporate filming and we were laughing like mad on the chem stuff.

Called trishna and hand over the phone to young. He mimicked leong lah. Oh man. I couldn’t stop laughing.

TRISHNA LEONG, you would like that thing we made you. Although you’ll deny it, but its perfectly okay. We totally understand(:

Photooooos :D

i drew them(:

I feel all so fucked up again now. I don’t want to talk. I feel like shit. I want back what I used to have. And I’m getting back now. But I have the tingling feeling I still know you. DDDD: can I go back to you? The whole world is a jerk but you isn’t. You never will be.

I want macdonalds tomorrow for breakfast(:

2007-07-14T10:18:00.000-07:00

I had a bad day. I posted about it last night. If you read my blog from 12am to 11am, you will know. But its deleted.

I feel fucked up. That’s it.
And don’t you come asking me what it is. You may ask dawn.

I’m ultimate angry. And I’m not emo. Being angry is not emo, thank you.

I'm sorry if you think I am who I used to be. I've changed and thats bottom line. I will not live in the past and tell you nothing is going wrong. I'm sick of all this shit and I'm saying it.

____ is a jerk.

2007-07-12T21:01:00.000-07:00

I swear my row is damn funny. Its like world war 3 unleash. Its like all the noise are all coming from our row. HAHA(: I love my row too.

Sarah’s birthday is tomorrow. And its FRIDAY THE THIRTEEN. HAHAHA. We were talking about it in class today. Anyway, I’ve decided to dedicate her a song.

And to jerlynn, gen, aretha, ella, peijin, gloria tan, judi, jean, bala and my class.
This time, I messaged them to listen. I would have wanted to dedicate when its during x’s - say it with music - but that’s tomorrow and 10pm onwards.

Jerlynn can’t wait. Haha.

2007-07-10T21:20:00.000-07:00

I’m worried about something.
Yet, I don’t know what.

And now I sit here, waiting for X to reply me. Which he never will, I think. ( at least not till tonight or tomorrow )

Oh my gosh. I just heard this REALLY REALLY FREAKY GUY. Haha. I was laughing like crap. Hello, ___ is like freaked out. HAHAHAHA.

Oral today was great. And embarrassing. I went out from the wrong DOOR. Like shit embarrassing. I was like, hell.

I wrote this last night but saved it and now X has replied me. Okay. I’ve implemented my care package. Its retarded. But its good.

And JERLYNN IS JEALOUS BECAUSE SHE WANTS IT.

Happy birthday JUDI(: I hope you like the cupcake I baked you. ITS NICE OKAY. Dawn likes it too :D Jerlynn keeps asking me to bake it for her. HAHAHA.

oh yeah, I got "spin the mutton wheel" on this morning. CZ heard. haha.
SHE WAS LIKE, WTH.

the letter is F. faint- linkin park.

2007-07-06T23:49:00.000-07:00

KERA IS A FUNNY/LAME/RETARD/CRAZY GIRL.

she wanted to call X. and i didn't want to.
but she made me call. so i tried to call and i got it.
HAHA. she was scolding me like shit.

and she wanted the song THE RIVER by GC if she gets it and another GC song came out.
and its like they will only play one song from one album. and KERA started cursing.
but then, it was HER DEDICATION, very very long ago. and X is playing now.

HAHAHAHA.

ok, dawn is so going to kill me. BULLDOZER, where are you?

2007-07-06T19:18:00.000-07:00

Live Earth and DEAFCON tomorrow.
I think I feel like staying at home in the night and watching live Earth.

There‘s like many many bands, including LINKIN PARK, RIHANNA, AND BEASTIE BOYS, BLACK EYED PEAS, JAMES BLUNT, JOHN LEGEND, MADONNA, METALLICA, PAOLO NUTINI, PUSSYCAT DOLLS, RED HOT CHILI PEPPERS, SNOW PATROL, TERRA NAOMI, AKON, ALICIA KEYS, BON JOVI, FALL OUT BOY, JOHN MAYER, KANYE WEST, KEITH URBAN, KELLY CLARKSON, SMASHING PUMPKINS, THE POLICE AND MANY OTHERS.

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I got FIVE AT FIVE today.

RING.RING.
Dan: hello?
Me: hello?
Dan: hello?
Me: hello?
Dan: hello?

(practically, this went many times because we're lame people. HAHA :D

Me: hey dan and young.
Dan: hi, whose this?
Me: Winnie.
Dan: “think and pause” which Winnie?
Me: the one which gave you donuts and brownie cake.
Dan and young: I LOVE WINNIE. WINNIE IS AWESOME. THANKS FOR EVERYTHING. YOU’RE OUR FAVOURITE.
Me: HAHAHA. I hope you like it.
Dan: thanks for everything. My family thanks you and I thank you and its just awesome. You shouldn’t pamper us so much. HAHAHA.
Me: HAHA. Its no problem.
Young: eh, wait ah. Starting soon.

They said that I’m their FAVOURITE.

I bet dawn is so going to KILL ME. HAHAHAHA.

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Oh, I called Xavier last night. We’re thinking of excuses to escape the undone homework. HAHA. He rock okay.

And transformer movie, we’re going to watch it. On Sunday. (:

We both have been called mountain tortoise because everyone has watched it and we haven’t.
They went, “Winnie/Xavier, what kind of world do you live in?”

And we compared bulldozer and parang. KERA better not bully me. I’ll win YOUUUU.

2007-07-04T20:56:00.000-07:00

Last week, I lost my friends.
This week, I lost my family.
And perhaps, I’ve lost God too.

I think because of small incidents we broke up is too much. How many times have I suffered that and kept quiet. What was that damn reason? I’m not feeling pissed, I just feel so disappointed. I thought I had you. I did all I could do let you know I was there. And now, I saw the boundary line you drew for me. This is my repay. I never wondered why. I never till now, and I realized, you never understood me before. At least bala understands the situation. THANKS BUDDY.

2007-07-04T19:48:00.000-07:00

I want Harry Potter Gala Premier ticket. I WANTTTT.
I will try to win from DAN AND YOUNG.

I nearly got 5 at 5 today.
I NEARLY GOT.

I had fun with dawn today, in the computer lab. DAMN LAH.
she sent a letter to X,

DAWN CHUA MEI SEE, you see whether I’ll chase you with a bulldozer now.
but X says I’m a nice girl.

I was irritating her about ___ not replying. HA.

and X told me something about the restructure. (:
he didn’t say it straight to my face. but the hints were pretty obvious.

THANKS X, :D

DAWN CHUA MEI SEE wrote to X saying I am obsessed over _____.
you are obsessed over ______ too.

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I want transformer theme song(:
and I was singing it with dawn and, this happened.

winnie and dawn: TRANSFORMER, more than meets the eye.
winnie and dawn: Transformer.
Winnie: flying in the sky.
(pause)
winnie: oh, robots in the sky.
(pause)
DAWN: HAHAHAHAHAHAAHA. Its robots in disguise.

it wasn’t really my fault. I didn’t watch the movie, and I don’t know the lyrics.
so, DAWN, STOP LAUGHING WILL YOU. or I’ll bite you.

2007-07-02T20:08:00.000-07:00

I made a badge. (:
I ♥ X.

And I went to dan’s shop. And that guy was so nice, providing me with details and so, I bought a notebook. I’m waiting for the gothic one to come out. HAHA.

School tomorrow = parrot.

Cupcakes for x. I made them myself. HOLIDAY WHAT.
But I haven’t finish my homework.

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dawn and i were talking about how _____ is ours.
HAHA. you keep of mine and i'll keep off yours.

my care package was ruined): HAHA.

2007-07-01T23:25:00.000-07:00

SAY IT WITH MUSIC. i managed to call xavier again.
and QING, i don't call everyday. i call when i like it. HAHA.

allrightttt. we were talking about cookies. then someone shouted WINNIE WAS AWESOME.
it was youngggg. then xavier was like, let's shout together.
WINNIEEEE WAS AWESOMEEEEE.

young was drinking carrot juice(:
i got something against carrot juice. it taste weirdddd.
my mummy always chase me with carrot juice and some celery thing.

i've fallen in love with song2 - blur.

and xavier went overseas. so won't be hearing from him this weekend.
should be jacq.

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kera has been calling me and we're talking NONSENSICALLY lah.
haha. she's fun to crap with.

AND I'M NOT SOME GOOD GIRL OKAY. BUT I'M STILL NICE.
(:

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DEAFCON, anyone? hmph.

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and i just want to tell my PARROT, that i love her a lot.
that its okay she's always repeating other people's words.
and that she's always nosiy and irritating me(kidding)

but my PARROT is funnnyyyy.

2007-06-29T22:10:00.000-07:00

i feel so fucking pissed and hurt.
so thats all then. thats all then.

you knew it, yet, you said nothing.
you make me feel like shit. thats all. overnight, its gone.

i hate the way i feel hurt.

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i mailed xavier last night. i told him not to say my mail on air.
i don't know if he did. i fall asleep while listening, from 1.30am to 2am.
but he replied. the mail was really funny.

talking about sheeps and MY SHEEP CRASHED ONTO THE FENCE.

xavier is love.

my gorgeous birthday cake to young :D

2007-06-29T00:02:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOUNGGGGGGG.
I HOPE YOU REALLY LIKE THE BROWNIE CAKE I GOT YOU.
(: yummmmm.

i brought KERA'S umbrella all the way can.
it's so retard. i think everyone was laughing at me.
HAHAHAHAHA.

and young post it on his moblog((:
OH YAYYYYYYY. trishna and i was like. ZOMGGGGGGG.

"yummy! Thanks for the goodies trishna and winnie!" -YOUNG

and i made a card for xavier too! together with cookies to keep him on!
i called him again, and "winnie always never fail to get to talk to me." HAHAHAHAHA.

but he didn't receive the card and cookies because he came late. so he's going to sneak off to the reception to get it.
HAHA(: i love talking to him. we just chat non stop.

he SAY I'M A SWEET GIRL. and so i am.

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i tried calling SAY WHAT today. (: i said happy birthday to young.
oh yeah, dan and young at _______ on saturday.

i'm so going to go and chase Young with a parang because he doesnt allow me to talk.

wait, parang is kera's weapon.
so i'll chase him with a bulldozer.
HAHAHAHA

2007-06-26T21:23:00.000-07:00

School is just pure hell. If you’re in my class, you know it.
So don’t deny it.

Ms chang switched many of our places. And now everyone is so far away from me.
I’m now stuck with famous Judi, and Bala(I’m always in front of her since start of school), and JERYLNN. Oh my. You’ll so want to kill her.

I do not deserve this torture.

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UMBRELLA ELLA ELLA EH EH EH.
Under my umbrella.

I swear this song is ELLA’s theme song.
I’m singing it that day when carissa told me it was sound like ella’s song.
:D I love the video. Young damn extra.

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i think as i received the news that chris benoit killed himself after killing his wife and son, my mind broke down.
and slowly, it just sinks in, and then my whole life suddenly just crashed down.

it seems less than a year that i have been sitting on the couch and watching WWE.
and seeing Benoit and Eddie still alive and kicking.
and it just dawned onto me that i'll never see Eddie drive out in his car and say,
"I cheat, I lie, I steal"

and i'll never see Benoit's cripplecross face.
and his toothless grin.

Benoit's attitude and determination never fail to impact me even through these while.
and now, he had murdered. not anyone but his wife and kid.
i rather he was the victim. because it ruined my image of him in me.

2007-06-23T23:54:00.000-07:00

I GOT FREAKING XAVIER TEO AGAIN.
he's not a freak. i am

we sang my THEME song again.
winnie the poohhhhhh.

he still remember that i'm having work attachment in a hotel.
(: asked if i get 50% off if i stayed since i was there working before.
i was like, shhhhhh. REAL FUNNY.

wanting to catch a movie and linking to harry potter and characters dying.
and he said dumbledore died in the 6 book. so i thought he read the 5 book and said about sirius death.
turned out that he didn't read the 5th book. and he said i runined it. HAHAHA.

so he asked me what song i wanted. i wanted METALLICA.
and he just played it. and i want THE GREAT ESCAPE and he just played it too.
so he chose one for me. SONG 2 by BLUR. it was great.

dedicated to carissa, fiona and 3e3. i think when i get from dan, i'll dedicate to bala.
i got 5 for 5 on thursday. should have.

asked him for his email. he gave meeeeee(: said it was rather dead.
going to revive it sometime before next thurs. HE'S TAKING OVER SHAN'S SLOT.
when shan goes for vacation. meaning, shan's going overseas on thursday.

i was pretty sad at first, NO SHAN FOR WEEKS.
then XAVIER TEO for weeks seems so much better. (:

surprise surprise. i'm going to surprise him with something.
i think carissa and trish and dawn will know. i think.
carissa sure do.

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Talked to dawn from 2am to 5am this morning. About dan and young and 987.
FANS REVIVAL. Ohyeah,

Talked about dan and donuts last Saturday at the red wheels roadshow.
Dan was really shocked. Expression was priceless. Dawn said she never seen him offer to pay for the donuts to anybody before and him reacting like that.

Kera: maybe it's because i've been the only hardcore dan fan for a long time

2007-06-22T02:39:00.000-07:00

shit man. i slept from 6pm to 2am.
and totally missed 987 top 20 countdown with dan and young.
and most importantly, say it with music - shan wee.
both that i have been looking forward to allrightttt.

damn damn damn.
i even told carissa that i won't sacrifice shan for sleep.
and i did that.
i suck man. i told you, i really hate my freaking pea brain.

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tomorrow's the last day of work. i'm really sad.
true, i don't like the job because its really tiring and boring.
i yearn for something more, more exciting.

but two weeks. two weeks causes relationship to blossom.
i had lots of fun. and i guess its time to let go.

we'll meet again. i promise.

2007-06-21T22:49:00.000-07:00

called shan on tuesday night. and talked about donuts.
he loved the apple cinnamon. the one that i really loved too(:

great minds think alike.

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i tried calling jacq last night but its like really busytone.
so i emailed, thinking i might not get it because so many others really emailed as well.
BUT HEY, it came out like 10 mintues after i did that.

wake me up when september ends - greenday.

i want the song WAKE ME UP WHEN SEPTEMBER ENDS by GREENDAY. its dedicated to carissa, jiaying, gaya, fiona, trishna and adrienne, because school is starting and we haven't finish our homework so we need THE GREAT ESCAPE.

carissa must be damn honoured. i always dedicate to her.
and talk about her when i call shan.

she will do one on sat/sun with xavier. (:

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OH MY FREAKING PEA BRAIN. (i know this is random)
i called dan and young today and got selected for FIVE FOR FIVE.
:DDDD its damn awesome man.

its like live. usually when you call, they kind of played it later with the song.
but this is live. because young was like, "eh. wait ah." and i was UP LIVE.

carissa messaged me like 2 minutes later asking if it was me.
haha. my trademark.

WINNIE THE POOHHHHHH.

andandand. when they played the game SAY WHAT?
i tried to call.

and my damn stupid freaking pea brain cocked up.
when dan picked up the phone, i press off.

SHITTTTTTT man.

and both was my first attempt. and i got it.
almost)):

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work attachment ending soon. i don't want to.
I LOVE THEM. and auntie took a photo of me serving FABIAN.
some angmor.

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987fm SINGAPORE RIHANNA.
shan's really hot and funny and damn cool. he's real tall.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WoTn-aaTaY0

someone said shan looks like a giraffe giving birth when he dance. hello?
he rocks allrighttt. he's just really tall.
:D

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rock for wayne. anyone?

2007-06-17T22:03:00.000-07:00

I CALLED XAVIER TEO AGAINNNNNNNNNN
(:

i told him i'm winnie. and he sang the winnie the pooh song.
and i sang along. this is the way address each other. HAHA

he's damn hot please. talked about father's day.
and, men in white.

he asked me how was the movie and i told him, HIP was funny and hot.
and he asked to to proclaim that i'm not paid to advertise the movie.
(: HAHA.

and i dedicated my love to x.
i love hip, i love hip, i love hip.

allrightttt. i love xavier teo.
he said he went red like the lights in the studio.

he likes chocolate cake.

carissa said i'm greedy. wanting all of the 987 dj.
nope. i only want 2;

XAVIER TEO AND SHAN WEE IS LOVE.

bouncy bouncy smack smack - for my dad.
HAPPY FATHER'S DAY.

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redrain(: awesome awesome.
last year was better, but nonetheless - awesome.

let the red rain rain down on me, O Lord.

2007-06-16T22:25:00.000-07:00

had work attachment at 630am, till 130pm.
it was really fun. we're talking about hot chefs. (:
and the try-to-act mean chefs and managers.

then queued for donuts. ((:
donut factory for dan and shan.
6 for dan. 6 for shan.

its was so damn long and i queued for 3 hours and was really running out of time.
so i went forward to ask someone to buy for me, and some nice lady agreed.
still, i queued for 3 hours. its my pain and sweat.

off to cine to meet trishna and dawn

and thennnnn, passed the donuts to dan.
he was shocked and really didn't want the donuts. but dawn and i made him accept it.
he even want to pay me back the money because it was pretty expensive.

trishna gave dan mars bar and he just ripped open and pop it into his mouth. like.
trishna and i was stunned. like, oh my.

and shan left at first. and i got pretty sad but great man dan called shan and shan came back.
(((: shan was touched too.

And I told him I was the girl with faulty phone and the Paris Hilton sound alike thing.
It was so funny. He said that was the funniest phone call he had that night.
I LOVE SHAN WEE, 11 to 2

He told me that I didn’t need to apologise. and I snap one quick photo with him.

shan is so super tall.

I hope they enjoy the donuts that I queued long time.

thennnn trishna and i started playing some dumb attack the alien game thing that dan recommended.
and dawn played the guitar game.

2007-06-14T23:57:00.000-07:00

I GOT SHAN WEE AGAIN. like for don't know how many times.

i got nervous suddenly and stuttered.
he thinks i'm like PARIS HILTON. i'm so not her.
i do not drive without a license. and i don't have either one. car or license.
(: and he told me not to be nervous.

anyway, i checked out if young was going to saturday and he said no.
he thought i was really sad. ahhhha.

and he said he was hurt. like whatever.
oh my gosh. shan wee, he's hot man. :DDDD

2007-06-12T00:10:00.000-07:00

I went service yesterday. It was so real good.
:DDDDDDD it really set me to a new path forward.
I love my new home. New church at paya lebar was real nice and cool and EXCITING.

Its pastor joakim schools seminar allrightttt. Its like really cool and exciting.
I totally love the atmosphere.

TAKE THE SCHOOLS. TAKE THE SCHOOLS.

And pastor How came to talk to me after that. Really confided much to him.
I love pastor man. He’s so funky and cool and great. And to think he still remembers my name because church is growing so much bigger.

I ♥ pastor How. I ♥ Heart of God church.
and I miss pastor Joakim.

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I called shan today. (: I think the only I can’t call is dan and young.
Except if you count - say what?

At first, when I called, my reception was bad, ( yes, AGAIN!) and the line got cut off.
So I was really sad and decided to call again, and feeling that I won’t get it.

Shan wee’s line at night is really busy. Few nights ago when I tried was all busy.
): and tonight, I got 2 times.

A great change after being unlucky these few days.
1. I lost ten bucks.
2. I was late for work attachment and had to cab there and wasted 15 bucks.
3. My legs and arms are aching now.
4. I failed to call shan for the 1st time today.